Self-Portrait in a Cleveland Mall

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Interior of Cleveland's 5th Street Arcades. A curved glass ceiling covers two floors of shops with wooden doors, marble exteriors, and iron railings. Globe lights and amber string lights illuminate the space. A few figures walk through the lower floor.
Image by Erik Drost, licensed under the Creative Commons Attribution 2.0 Generic License.
A girl in a green dress with a white sash for Christmas
is easily ruffled.

Why can’t you stand still?
Why do you talk so much?

Yes, the mouth is stuffed
with words, the smile a bit wry
as the flash bears down
like car headlights,
and the eyes, you can hardly see, but they’re no less red
than the glassy eyes of the paper doves in the tree.

Red weeps them pink
over time—Pink doves!
How pathetic! All crumpled and blurry
like someone went ahead and washed them.

Or worse, they were flushed
out—Still the poise!

Maybe it’s not so different from a girl’s rage
that fizzes into being as in a dark room.
Poof! Blind rage: the shock
of color seeps in.

In The Arcade, more a dingy tunnel between two far streets,
you see the snow coming down fast. Back you go
wandering your day off,
all your watered-down rage,
haul it into the white,
feel it become the sadness that crushes you.

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